Lessons

 

Hello! It’s been a long while since I’ve written but lots have happened. There are so many lessons that life teachers us. We often do not know that they are lessons until we are licking our wounds caused by this lesson. 

I’m a strong believer in God and spirituality. There are battles being fought in the spaces beyond what  we can not physically see. However, as these battles are being fought we are advised to use intuition or discernment to identify what’s not a positive part of our life’s journey. It is in the middle of those spaces that we learn our lessons. It is in those spaces we have encounters with others. It is in those spaces that we begin to walk another course that being a lesson in which we will pass or have to repeat the test at the culmination of that path.

With that being said I’ve learned that it’s ok to let people go. I have always struggled with letting go or leaving people where they are after they’ve mistreated me or we’ve grown apart. I guess that’s why letting go of the fact my son was no longer a child was so hard for me. I struggled a lot, with not having him home or around and not having many friends who could relate. It was a lonely process. Although, I must give props to my bestie for holding me down and listening to me vent while my son became a man. I know she could only empathize to a certain extent. It was far more comforting than what others tried to provide. 

Another lesson I’ve learned is that whatever happiness is meant for you will find you when the time is right. From my own experience, you must learn your “lessons” and comprehend what you need to do different before that happens. Let’s say you had trauma that resulted in you having boundary issues. As life progresses you begin experiencing the same negative outcomes, expecting something different to happen and it never does. The problem isn’t the other people or person in this scenario it is you. You haven’t realized you are not healed from the past trauma and still possess toxic lack of boundaries behavior. It’s not until you “see” what you’re doing wrong, then things begin to change for the better. In  this journey you must be open to hearing and understanding some harsh truths about yourself and the toxic behaviors you possess. It was not until my son became a young adult did I have the time or maturity to understand this concept. 

One final lesson for today is… love who you are and be protective of that person. You only get one life. Love freely and travel often. Time does not return to you.