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The Struggle

        

          Words escape me. There are so many things I feel and want to say. I'm not confident as to how to communicate it so, I take to these measures. My son has been away for about 3 weeks now. I'm grateful for the pictures that are posted on the Facebook page of his training camp.  For about a week, I didn't hear anything from him and I was more anxious than a father in the waiting room, anticipating the birth of his first born son.  I knew this was going to be challenging but the anxiety was consuming me. I've been able to cope because I have been busy.
        Before my son left I anticipated having a lot more free time than I normally would.  Subsequently, through ample persuasion from a few of my friends I decided to take my first solo trip to England. For as long as I could remember I’ve wanted to travel to the UK. However, for some reason I never made it while in my 20’s. So, I booked the trip on a whim and it was the best thing I’ve ever done. 

          I had an amazing experience in England. I stayed in the town of Uxbridge, which bordered the town of Hillingdon. The hotel  was so comfortable and homely. It was called the Red Lion hotel.  Liberated in my movements, it was strange. Now, I was able to do as I pleased. Jumped on the bus and the train and ventured into Central London.  Amazing is not even the best word to describe the beauty of the city during the day nor during the night. From what I was able to capture, the city is magical at night.  For some reason, I didn’t want to come back to America. It was a peaceful adventure. I definitely want to venture to that side of the world once more. 

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